Its Official

So, its official. I am not going back to work. The plan was for me to stay home for 8 weeks and go back to my wonderful job at Idaho Central, but the plan was also for Scott to become a driver at UPS. However, as I have learned...sometimes the best plan is to deviate from the original plan and play life as it comes. As Scott is going back to school in September and I was supposed to be the primary bread winner, I am sure some of you are thinking "That girl is crazy. With these tough economic times, what is she doing? People are being laid off all around the country and she is quitting!". And I will admit, I have had the same thought run through my head more than once. However, the following promptings have outweighed that thought by a mile.

• What is the big picture? Is the big picture until Scott graduates? the next twenty years? Or how about eternity? For me the big picture is eternity and this is just a small part of the painting. My family is eternal and everything else is temporal. So where do my priorities lie? To my eternal big picture or the temporal time when Scott is going to school. Yes, we will have to change our life style for a while. Yes, it will be hard. Yes, we might be tighter than we are used to. Yes, we will make it. And yes, it will be worth it.
• Echo, my super wise sister-in-law, told me something I will never forget. Life is like riding a tandem bike. We are on the back peddling as fast and hard as we can, but we can't control where the bike goes. That is up to the person in front who is steering. And that person is the Lord. We have to have faith in him to lead us in the right direction. I truly believe this is our test of faith. Why would we give up my job? Why would we give up our main source of income? Because that is the answer we got... Plain and simple. No second thoughts, we are doing what the Lord has told us to do. I have to confess, it was the scariest answer I have received. However, isn't that the ultimate act of faith? Jumping blindly and having faith he will catch you. I know he will bless us because we trust him. Our job is to keep peddling.
• Its funny the things that come to my head at 3 am when I'm feeding my baby. I have decided I am going to start a summer school program. I know, all the new moms turn to babysitting to supplement income right? But, this is different. I have outlined the summer with activities and have a fun curriculum. I have a few people interested already and think this will work fabulously. I am overwhelmed with peace when I think about doing this. I just know it is going to work.

So, I guess it all really boils down to two things: Faith and Family. The two greatest blessing in my life, and how could I turn my back on either one. Scott and I have carefully considered the situation and feel we are making the best decision. I am so blessed to have a supportive family and a wonderful son. So now, our plan has changed again...and we are living life as it comes.